Channeled Message for 2021
The Invisible Gift
“Contrary to popular belief, you can learn just as much by powerfully embracing joy and pleasure, as you can through overcoming hardship and adversity”
Saturday afternoon, while my children napped, I lit a nodule of pine resin collected from a recent hike with my husband. The pungent smoke has become a beloved ally while channeling. Grabbing me by the ankles, it yanks me into my body, and sends me down its ancient currents, where images and information move in swiftly.
***The following words were channeled while exploring the messages and energies available to us for the year 2021. ***
Now is the time of the Invisible Gift.
You must quiet your heart.
Quieting the yearning and surrender to what is here now, to all you have, and all there is to savor.
Let things in. Feel everything head on!
Feel the discomfort, fear, lethargy, uncertainty, loneliness, apathy and loss as fully as one can, and then feel it a bit more. Get to the feelings behind the feelings. Are you really angry at that person, or are you afraid they don’t love you? Are you bored, or are you scared to start a project you might fail?
Let yourself drown in the experience of love, joy, excitement, PLEASURE, peace, lightheartedness, warmth, vulnerability and intimacy. Most humans rush by and through these moments because they are far too uncomfortable to sit with, let alone expand. Contrary to popular belief, you can learn just as much by powerfully embracing joy and pleasure, as you can through overcoming hardship and adversity. Unfortunately, many humans have subscribed to the belief that everything worth while must be hard won.
The gift is the expansion and the exploration of our feelings. The gift is in being radically honest with oneself.
The fear and avoidance of feeling is hell, and this is why there is so much hell on earth at this moment. We have gotten to the point where we will avoid our feelings at all cost. At the slightest twinge of discomfort, the phones are out and distorted comforts available in every flavor. Let me assure you, the cost is too high.
Ask yourself, ‘Where do I go to escape from feeling?’
Escapism is a well disguised energy. We all know the obvious sides of escapism, (checking out to watch Netflix at the end of a stressful day, drinking, smoking pot); but escapism also presents itself as something that has to be done, right in this moment (checking your email, reorganizing your closet, being busy with work, making a snack, scrolling social media, calling a friend… etc….). How often are you edging towards a tough feeling, when you remember you “need” to send an email? What would happen if instead, you continued to move towards and through that emotion?
While, obviously, there is nothing inherently wrong with any of the activities listed above, it’s the impetus for engaging that causes harm and misalignment.
For example, being ‘too busy’ with work to sit down and write out this blog post. In reality, I haven’t been too busy, rather I’ve not wanted to sit with the uncomfortable feelings of ‘uncertainty’, nor the ‘fear’ of being ‘rejected’ or ‘unloved’ if I share what I am being asked to share.
Most often the avoidance of our emotional truths is FAR more painful than walking up and shaking hands with it. This is precisely where the gift exists. To feel every ounce and smidgen of discomfort, and to be honest about why we are feeling it, is the greatest of all gifts. To feel our discomfort so fully, that it expands and overtakes our whole being, until we think we can’t take anymore, and suddenly it bursts open and dissipates like water vapor in a wood sauna. It atomizes, becomes part of all that is, and the richness of being incarnate revealed.
As we befriend our discomfort, it becomes our ally and teacher. Our trusted advisor and guide, showing us both where we hurt, and how to it would like to be healed. We are then gifted next steps, because as the allowance of our awareness expands, so does the allowance and awareness of our ‘guided self,’ AKA: our intuition.
Unfortunately, we don’t get to selectively numb. Only when we experience the fullness of our grief, discomfort and pain, will we be able to access the earth shaking realms of pleasure, joy, and radiant love. And isn’t the root of every prayer and want, joy and radiant love?
So how does one begin to recover from chronic avoidance of feeling?
A wonderful tool for getting started, was shared with me by my dear friend, Jenna Gessay. The first moment you wake up, before doing anything, place a hand on your heart and ask, “ What do I need today?” and then do whatever that one thing is, NO. MATTER.WHAT.
If it says ‘go for a walk,’ then go for a walk. If it says ‘eat a bowl of peanut butter captain crunch,’ eat that bowl of cereal. Do this practice everyday for a week, and begin to observe all the ways your heart/body/soul are asking for what they need. Begin to notice the ways you attempt to quiet this voice. As well, sink into how you feel when giving your body/heart/soul what it is asking for. Do you rush through or avoid the sensations? Or do you savor every crunchy bite of peanut-buttery goodness?
As this relationship evolves, messages become clearer, and your response muscles stronger. You may soon find the voice asking you to address areas of discomfort, and that which is out of alignment with what you truly need. You may notice your ability to dive more deeply into the ecstasy of your lovers touch, or linger a bit longer in a vulnerable moment with a friend.
These rich moments of feeling are the invisible gifts of life, and unless we charge towards them, head on, like a warrior tiger with teeth bared and claws out, our days will disappear, one after the next. For no matter our course, eventually, we will be at the end of our time here, and I pray that you will have felt it ALL.
